A Vacation In Mind

Something that plays for seconds which I used more than 3 hours to complete.

Kisiao lah!! I must be CRAZY~~

Well it's a good try anyway, isn't it? Wish I could do more stuffs like this in the future...I mean during the holidays after A-levels...

Hope you guys enjoy it^^

微风
拂过卧室
像蜜糖里的气泡
淡淡的茉莉茶香
爬满鲜花的窗台
楼下喧闹的街道
瞥见你一闪而过的身影
是熟悉的温暖

I was thinking about my A levels result, how to spend my holiday, hanging out with friends, trying my best to attract others' attention...etc...things that young people usually think about.
Until I accidentally ran into this girl's blog.
I was stunned.
I didn't realize how small and superficial I am.
The Lord has a great need today.
And He can have His way only if we are willing to fully cooperate with Him.
There are bunches of peaple sent to the lake of fire everyday.
There are lots young people living in vanity, heading to nowhere but the enemy's trap.
There are people working, striving and suffering every moment without taking God as their rest.
There are loads of believers who do not contain God in their spirit.
We need to preach the gospel, the high gospel, which is full of truths.
Only such high gospel can bring the Lord back.
Only when the gospel is preached throughout the whole inhabited earth,the Lord can be back.
We, human beings, play a crucial role in God's plan.
It all depends on whether we are willing to concecrate ourselves to Him, to let Him have the way.

By the way, I got the hymn from http://blog.xuite.net/chuan8318/blog/8381585
It can't be attached here...just listen to it in the above webpage

答應得勝的呼召
每當思念大马地，淚洗面心憂傷，
千百萬人在喪亡，你我在何方？
曾經飛越太平洋，盼將來衣錦還鄉。
神憐憫，你我蒙恩，得生命識神經綸。
今活著，應向神，遵主意，速興起。

（副）整行裝，莫遲疑，要出去，傳福音。
聖靈大風今吹到，遍地熟稼發白了。
機不可失在今日，答應得勝的呼召。

君不見民工遍地，尋出路如羊迷，
背井離鄉來異地，生死有誰理？
流落四方無朝夕，血汗榨乾錢無幾。
你我同為神器皿，在神眼中同價值。
速興起，要出去，救萬人，揚真理。

君不見校園林立，青年人無目的。
世界魔鬼大張口，成群被吞噬？
心靈空虛難自持，知識理想只瞬时。
你我已蒙神憐憫，白白得來當送去。
速興起，要出去，到校園，得青年。

君不見廣廈密佈，人如潮車如流，
各地居民千千萬，福音有誰傳？
生老病死一代代，成群結隊火湖煎。
耶穌見人慈心動，你我豈能不動情？
速興起，要出去，遍各方，救靈魂！

基督再來迫眉睫，踏腳石頭難找。
國度福音要廣傳，誰願受差遣？
不是被提就殉道，答應呼召莫漏掉。
得勝在於同主行，不要再把藉口找。
速興起，要出去，轉時代，在今朝。

I
Late night
the time when deep feelings arise
when they boil and coil in the air
and they vapourise and fill the air.
Miss you,
although I tried sooo hard
to keep stopping myself from thinking of you .

I'm so sorry but I love you.
It was all lies.
And without me knowing
I had let you leave.

Don't look back and leave
because I have no regrets loving you
take only the good memories.

You are always there within
making me so fed up of it.
There are lots of things in reality that we have to bear with.
There are lots of things that we can do nothing about but accept.

Goodbye.
Enjoy your campus life with others
and maybe another girl as well.
Although I knew that it would end up like this since the last day we met
I never had regrets loving you.


II
Thank you for being a serving one.
Sorry, but you are a serving one.
Dare I cause the body of Christ to lose its oneness?
And would I ever be able to defeat God?
Neither would you.
In fact, it isn't good for you to lose the testimony and pattern before the sheep you are taking care of.

Miss you,
although I tried sooo hard
to keep stopping myself from thinking of you
to keep avoiding myself from admitting it.
I'm so sorry but I love you.
It was all lies.

It was awesome for us to know what's in each other's heart finally, after eight month's waiting and observation.
It was jubilant to realise that you reacted exactly the same as I did, when I tried to control myself at the same time when I looked at you.
The feeling was unspeakable when we look into each other's eyes,
when there was a rythmic flow from you to me.
And to be taken care of was like being surrounded by warmth, which was especially thick and meaningful to a girl who has to leave her family and best friends and stand alone in facing all sorts of challenges in campus life.
You made me feel as if I've found something lost in those wonderful days.

Why me among so many?
I wonder
Yet I dare not think further to find out the answer.
After all it had all came to an end, right?

Impossibility.
Keeps pounding and pounding in my mind, again and again.
There are lots of things in reality that we have to bear with.
There are lots of things that we can do nothing about but accept.
There are lots of things in reality that we have to force ourselves to learn in order to fit in.
I'm not overreacting to be realistic, but unfortunately both of us live in a world of reality.
Sorry, but this is the only best thing I can do for you.
I hate myself. And I hate the flesh, so much.
Subtle Satan.

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all lies.
Will you be taking only the good memories?

You wouldn't know
probably for ever
that I bear more pain than you do.
It seemed as though I was alright
I laughed and talked and had fun and avoided your eyes
pretending to be strong and doesn't care
Coz i knew that there is no other way,
so it had to be done once and for all.
"Be strong," I repeated again and again to myself.
Deep down within my heart was bleeding
AGAIN AND AGAIN.
until an extent that it is dumb towards everything.
It dies, it fades, it is bruised and ruined day by day.
From another point of view, isn't it good to be dumb?
With no feelings, one suffers no pain.

Sick of PMS! swt~
I become more and more glutton recently~~
I waste a lot of time and money and chemical energy and ATP exercising my jaws and munching and biting and chewing and digesting...eww. Disgusted. But unstoppable. Yuck.
Aww. Why am I ALWAYS hungry?!
And I know that I've caused troubles. But it's not me!!! It's the hormones!I didn't ask for it...T.T
It's in the flesh , it's in the body, it's something uncontrollable.
I hate hormones. So much.

What's the goal of the gospel?

This morning some conflict arose between me and my roomates.
I do not like conflicts, and I am afraid of facing each other after something nasty has happened. Yet I am not afraid this time, if this is what will happen after I've asked Your permission before I did it. It wasn't a pleasant morning since then, but anyway I just don't care. Your presence strengthens me.

Thank You Lord, I love You.

The goal of the gospel is that loving the Lord Jesus with the first love. We would pour out upon Him what is most precious to us, even our most costly and valuable spiritual treasure, wasting ourselves upon Him.

I do not know how far can I go, but in You I have faith. Guide me and lead me Lord, to love You with a single and pure heart, giving You the first place in everything.

Lord Jesus, what a wonderful name.
Thank You for taking away whatever I want and have, and replace all these by Yourself. You are all I need...Lord, keep me in a continuos enjoyment in You.

You are always there beside me, no matter what happens.